Aha moment had two stages.
One was on the rational level and that arrived quite soon. I simply realize that this was not working in the long run.
Unfortunately the message was not quite sinking to the emotional level because in short term, I was able to perform. I was simply hoping for a good luck. More that was statistically possible. Then I lost all my money and there was no more left, without cutting my living expenses.
I realized that the game was over.
 
			


